January 2010
119 posts
2nd last minute reminderss..
New years is almost here in 3.5 hrs, [pacific time]. Kinda nervous and excited at the same time. 2010 will mark a new decade, me being this young, this age, will NEVER happen again. This is crazy and weird. But before the clock strikes midnight I just wanna remind myself of small little things to keep in mind, to keep me going when 2010 is here, and tell myself 2009 wasn’t as great as i...
last minute adjustments...
What are your romantic resolutions? Make a list on the 31st, then take it easy.
I want him to be funny and make me smile and laugh a lot.
For him to be funn to be around
To be understanding and caring
To not judge me and accept me for who i am, as well as my family and friends.
To take care of me and protect me.
To be considerate and wanna know whats bothering me.
Grow as a individual.
To...
December 2009
130 posts
“ I know : ) just seeing you smile makes me smile and the same goes for...”
– A text “he” sent me, to a response I sent him before: ) This puts a huge smile on my face:D
to do
buy books for class
clean apt.
cook some dinner
gas in my car
lame, but i need to get all this junk outta the way, so i am not feeling like i have lots to do. School starts monday and i am not gonna have time today to do anything, so might as well do shit now.
damn..
School is gonna be a bitch this term:/ Money, money…I shouldn’t think about since it worries me! But I still have to:
Purchase 2 books for my Anthropology class. about $170.
Still have a shit load of tuition to pay for the first term alone that my loan wont entirely cover, thats about hmmm $700 extra..
This effing snow better stop. I don’t want to drive on the freeway to class...
REMINDER. 2010
I have so much things lined up and planned for next year. They may not mean anything to you, but for me they are. I’m really wanting to keep myself really really busy. More busy than right now. I want to be productive this next year. I hate making resolutions each year, and fail within the first week. Um, lets see these are the ones that I am really looking at, more so goals and resolutions mixed...
“29 Dec 2009
sagittarius
Feeling cared for and needed is what makes you most...”
– Todays Love Horoscope.
ughhh
stick that in your pipe and suck it. Yeah im sick and tired of your shitt.. Dont wanna talk to you, so dont text me. Dont even ask if anything is wrong, you should fuckin know whats wrong asshole. Act as though your innocent. Dont even… Im the idiot for even believing you… Im so mad I want to cry, I’m fuming in anger, that i can feel a lump in my throat.. so madd
*sigh*
I’m bumming. Throughout the day, felt like pointless shit. One thing that stuck out was, what’s my purpose and whats the point of things. The little things that use to matter, don’t as much anymore. I want good bigg shit to come my way. I’m tired of childs play.. I feel depressed, but kinda just bumming. Listening to Noah Gundersen is calming though, acoustic shit: )...
ughhhh landkjvndkjs...
what a stupid bitch, i fucking hate her. And him too. Maybe I was wrong the whole mother effing time. >:( ugggggghhhh
ughhhh landkjvndkjs...
what a stupid bitch, i fucking hate her. And him too. Maybe I was wrong the whole mother effing time. >:( ugggggghhhh. Thanks for inviting me assholes… I don’t care, I just need to forget about it..
FML. This shit always happens to me…..shit.
>:(
Gosh damn it, I miss him:( I’m not going out w/ the dude, yet i miss him..I’m such a loser. Shit.I actually hate myself for missing him…i wanna forget himm…
Goals & Resolutions for 2010.
be more confident w/ myself. ( At least a tiny bit more)
Dont get soo attached to guys.
Go on a legit date.
Not be single. (I’ve been single for soooooo long)
Enroll HipHop dance class
Pay my bill on time
Pay off my credit card
Speak whats on my mind, instead of holding back.
Manage my money responcibly.
Youth group
Church
Baptized
Meet 5 NEW friends
Finish my gauging ear...
Dancers.
Me: I so want to dance, its been my goal for a long time. I just don't do it b/c the girls are snobs and bitches..
Nancy: i know they are.
Me: I'm tired of letting people dominate me, Im freaking 20 years old.
Nancy: Yeah, you'd probably have a hott body, from dancing.
Me: I don't think so. I've seen the girls, they're kinda fat either way.
Nancy: Well that's b/c they are porkers. They eat crap.
Both: hahahahhahaha
>:I
I really hate him, right now.. its sucks to find someone you like say similar things to other girls : ( I fucking hate him.
Why am I an idiot, that always falls for his charming shit. I tell myself the same thing, yet I go back to liking him….Ugggghhhhhhhhhh…. I need to put my foot down! If he really cared he’d find a way, to make it clear he likes me!
Fuck this.
Lame.
I guess some things are too good while they last. You shouldn’t get use to them: ( I really like this guy. But, it’s those situations where you have no idea, what he’s feeling. Does he like me or not?? Ugghhhhh I hate this. I really really want to know, so I can just move and dwell about it and feel sad about it. Or be happy and know someone feels the same way I do about them....
what a joke.
This loser has not texted me. I was so right. That he wouldn’t. I am not gonna do the “work”, I so don’t want to look desperate. Why are guys ignorant about those kinds of things???? Damn it. I have no idea why, I am like attatched to him. I’m the loser that keeps looking over at my cell phone, to miraculously, hear my cell phone vibrate and hear a text message come...
Ew.
My face is peeling. Tanning was a bad idea. My face was pink for like 3 days straight, it was terrible. But still its grosss.
Totally crushing on someone..
Damn, I can’t believe I have a crush on someone. Only setting myself for a heartbreak. Something deep down in my heart says to not give up. I’m tired of never getting the guy that I like. Why? Its not fair. I feel like I deserve this. I have a good heart, I am kind, damn it karma give me this.. Shit..
I actually care about him. I have never cared for some one so much, other than my...
mehh...
Cant believe A Day To Remember, is not playing warped tour. Fucking’ A man.
Grr..
So this is lame. But I really really like this one guy. Im really not sure if he feels the same way too.? Hm… I kinda would like to know. But kinda don’t.
Christmas 2009 : )
Whoa this years christmas was by far the best: ))) I loved it, and enjoyed spending time w/ my family as well as giving them presents: ) For once my dad behaved and wasn’t a jerk, like he usually is on holidays and made me laugh a lot. My little brother was a jerk thought. He always wants everything to revolve him, like a spoiled brat. Anyways everyone seemed content w/ the gifts me and my...
Ehh.
I fucking hate guys right now. I feel annoyed with them, for no reason. Fuck them all.. I just wish I had lots of money to shop..That would make me happy!
Facebook..
I effing hate how people add you or you add them, and they are fags and fucking delete you a couple of days later. Assholes..
Remaining night...B-day
Alright so I ended the other half of the day, by taking a mild nap before having to pick up my paycheck. Man was I really tired. My nap was only 45 min. I wanted to sleep in longer but I needed to do so much. I picked up my paycheck, cashed it and filled my car up w/ gas since it was running really low, well empty. Then I went tanning and got ready to have dinner @ The G Street Bar and grill. Met...
Mid-Bday day...@ work
Well I kinda thought I shouldn’t be bummed since, my bday is once a year. I also talked to some guy at work and totally felt better about myself. Kinda vented, but not about the “guy” issue, about other issues. I think I needed that. You go crazy when you keep things bottled up, better to talk about things and just chill. Anyways, so when our discussion was over I saew...
Meh... What a b-day so far:'/
So today was going great until I was somewhat crushed: ( I mean I woke up on time and early for work this morning. Looked decent and alright w/ how I looked since I never have time to look good. I picked up my free Dutch Bros drink(20 oz), I was early for work. I walked into the breakroom and was suprised with my b-day prez by the guy that i like. That totally made my day. We also talked and...
Living With Lions.
I like this song. I...
Helping my bro w/ his gf's xmas gift..
Me: What does she like?
Eddie: Um, i dunno..
(My older sister sees cross necklaces & religious jewelry)
Nancy: Is she religious or anything...
Me: No she has NO morals.. [Busted out laughing soooo hard. Even 5 min after it was over in the middle of the jewelry section]
Nancy: hahahhahahha
Me: hahahahhha
Eddie: What? I didn't hear what you said.
Me: Never mind. (Still laughing hard)