January 2010
119 posts
lame.
i really dont like comparing my life to others. its so annoying not feeling good enough. Yuck. What can you do? Just be you, thats all. Everyone hides their fakness thru pictures but really theyre a bunch of drunks, and whores so why feel like i am not good enough because i am nothing like them? eff that. I should not give a damn, i kinda dont after writing this, hahah. shit.
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I want to..[2010]
Take a hip hop dance class starting January
Go to Youth Group
Get Baptized
Go on a summer Vacation
Go to warped Tour
Go to Tomfest
Go to Disneyland/Hollywood
Graduate this June 2010
Find a Job @ the end of August
Move to portland, if I have to, to find a job.
Buy a BMW either this coming year or the year after next year.
Be more confident w/ myself. Not entirely but...
Goals & Resolutions for 2010.
Goals & Resolutions for 2010.
be more confident w/ myself. ( At least a tiny bit more)
Dont get soo attached to guys.
Go on a legit date.
Not be single. (I’ve been single for soooooo long)
Enroll HipHop dance class
Pay my bill on time
Pay off my credit card
Speak whats on my mind, instead of holding back.
Manage my money responcibly.
Youth group
Church
Baptized
Meet 5 NEW friends
...
Again. 2009 to 2010
REMINDER. 2010
I have so much things lined up and planned for next year. They may not mean anything to you, but for me they are. I’m really wanting to keep myself really really busy. More busy than right now. I want to be productive this next year. I hate making resolutions each year, and fail within the first week. Um, lets see these are the ones that I am really looking at, more so goals and...
Reminder from 2009 to 2010!!!
last minute adjustments…
What are your romantic resolutions? Make a list on the 31st, then take it easy.
I want him to be funny and make me smile and laugh a lot.
For him to be funn to be around
To be understanding and caring
To not judge me and accept me for who i am, as well as my family and friends.
To take care of me and protect me.
To be considerate and wanna know whats bothering...
REMINDERS from 2009 for 2010!!!!
2nd last minute reminderss..
New years is almost here in 3.5 hrs, [pacific time]. Kinda nervous and excited at the same time. 2010 will mark a new decade, me being this young, this age, will NEVER happen again. This is crazy and weird. But before the clock strikes midnight I just wanna remind myself of small little things to keep in mind, to keep me going when 2010 is here, and tell myself 2009...
Goals, I guess..
Go to Americas Best Dance Crew show in LA.
Perform in June dance recital.
Go to a Lakers or Portland Trail Blazers game.
California vacation this june? or Summer.
Get my hair did.
Warped tour.
Dew tour possibly?
Pay off some debt w/ tax refund
Why do I have a hard time believing what a guy says to me? I feel like its ALWAYS a lie? How do I know when its for reals? Or when he means it? I hate feeling like I am always being played, that’s why I miss out on oppurtunities cuz I think they’re messing me with;ppp.
Dear Anyone with Low Self Esteem,
behappywhensad:
oldschoolpopstar:caitywebbstack:powerpufffgirl:halfofmyheart-:simpleties:sinkthatship:thisisthewayeprolls:vzade:where-the-heart-is:
You’re positively beautiful. I love your freckles on your nose, they bring out the colors in your eyes. Your hair frames your face perfectly. Your laugh is contagious and you will always make me smile. Those scars on your knees? They show me that...
Hm
Why do I feel ugly!? No matter how much I fix myself up, I look in the mirror and just see imperfection;( the flaws on my face and bad things. No wonder I have low self esteem. Why can’t I feel pretty? Maybe I am ugly. I also see my mom. I don’t want to look like her.
Download “your beautiful”
Boo hoo..
Its 1 am, and I am not even tired. I’m sitting eating Trix cereal right out of the box, and randomly just goin on facebook and myspace and twitter, this is lame. I have no idea why I am not tired? I’m wide awake..I tried falling asleep, but not tired at all. Boooo.
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This guy is weird he says flattery shit so when I do the same thing he doesn’t respond !? Ughhh. FML.
Boo
Why am I stubbornn. ? I have so much pride to put it aside I don’t want to be the person that looks dumb.
fuck today...
Im sick and tired of feeling like shit, and not good enough and being in a bitchy mood when things dont go the way I want. I give up. Is that what you fucking what to hear? B/c i am sayin it. I give up. Im not gonna bother anymore. I just need to deal with myself and focus on other important shit that is front of me. Why am i wasting my time in believing otherwise. Fuck this. its gonna hurt me,...
