i feel frustrated today, i know i should let it go and get over it but bothers me. I hate how my skin sucks and just feels like breaking out and no matter how i take care of it nothing is working to get it to look good, im tired of acne, i dont wanna deal with it anymore, its embarassing and lowers me self esteem. not to mention the spots of scars it leaves behind on my face:( ughhh

then i though things were going to be easy with this job hunting, and its not. It was too good to be true:( The exam i needed and wanted to take friday morning is no longer available to take, cuz its packed with people amd im on a 3 week waiting:( and im nervous and scared that i have to go to the office and volunteer friday morning:( so they can judge me and see how ugly i am and not good enough to work for them:( it sucks, and then to show up and be like yea i cant take the exam b/c i have to wait 3 wks cuz its full:( and then when i am able to take it, its on a friday in the morning and i work all morning so i have to lie and say im sick to go and take the test, which tests in 3 categories one of them being math, which i suck soo bad at it, and its easy math like applied math im a retard:( on the review test i got a level 2 score b/c i didnt even pass level 3, how lame is that, why am i retard with math? :/ so yea im annoyed with this day…

and dinner sucks too. i burnt the rice and the pork im cookin doesnt look appetizing at all. ughh i hate this:( and i didnt even work out today, cuz i didnt have time and didnt feel like it:( what a stupid day, this is lame, i know things arent going to be easy, but the tough times suck, its just knowing how to get thru them.

So annoyed my face is fucked up. its all dry and when i yawn or do any extension of my face feels like my face is going to rip, so dry:( ughhhh…… annoyed today is a stupid day